So, it just hit me today as I was looking through my video diary. I realized how many missed opportunities I've missed out on, and I'm wonder how and when this change came about. These missed opportunities were all in the love life category of life. What is wrong with me?? When did I become so cold/blind?!
Mind you, I am introverted to a point, but I've never had a hard time flirting it's really the follow up and unsuredness of myself that may assist in my relationship flops. Then years down the road I'm kicking myself wishing I didn't have such a hard time tell guys how I feel about them. 😒
I feel being older should help with this expression of feeling, yet it has not. I have retreated further in my shell and long harder to be with someone besides myself. I really don't want to be alone. I just don't know how to change this trajectory of my life at this point. 😔
Contemplating on how to move forward in light of this revelations. Of course there are no prospects as of late but I will try to keep this in mind.
