Sunday, June 19, 2016

Online Dating??

Online Dating...

Okay so, I tried this dating app. I will not say because it is not the individuals whom came up with the apps' fault for the dim witted idiots on the site. However, it was not Tender. I only last on this sight for 24 hour. Why? Because within 24 hrs I experience every extreme possible in the male personality. I'm not sure if that is because the fact that we were not face to face so they felt if was okay to ask very personal question they wouldn't ask in person.

The first guy whom messaged me was very charming...horrible spelling, and maybe that should have been a red flag, but I know some guys just all around suck at typing and spelling, period. So, I over looked that minor detail it wasn't as if he speech would need spell check if we were to get beyond this messaging stage. Then he started to get bossy and demanded I download KIK so he could message me through that app. I said I would try, but when I did not respond to him in a timely enough fashion he got huffy. Then the next day he messages me and proceeds to whine about his internet bill being due, and proceeded to ask if I could help him. Where I declined and explained that I would not forgo one of my bills to pay a strangers bills and discontinued talking to him.

Guy #2 was very nice look and charming as well. However, six lines into our messaging he asked me my bra size and if I would show them to him. I politely stated, no and mentally moved on. However, then he messages me to see if I would like to meet him. I politely stated that I thought he was nice, however, I don't think we are on the same page. I stated I am not looking for a friends with benefits relationship. His response, "I see".

Guy #3 I would say I had the longest conversion with, he came across charming as well, we talked about our favorite books and hobbies, then he asked me the shoes size. I inquired as to his inquiry and he said he liked feet and would like to give me a foot massage if I would allow it. Then he started asking me if I would come visit him...mind you in NY. In my mind it was all moving way to fast. Come to find out also from his Facebook...yeah, I got his whole name. 1. He has a girlfriend, and 2. He has two Facebook pages, why? shenanigan my guess 3. He is young as hell 10 yrs my junior. I just slowly faded in the background with him. Haven't heard from him, thank goodness. Hopefully his girlfriend put him in check...lol!

So, that is why I can't handle this online dating and will re-frame from it. I vow to wonder hardware stores, bookstores, coffee shops and local bars for men. Never again will I try the online thing. I swear it's for men with one track minds.

Tuesday, June 14, 2016

Ramblings....dream deferred

Dream Deferred (ramblings)



Antsy; jumpy; constantly moving....these are all terms that describe how I feel right now. I don't know why, but I feel like I can jump out of my own skin. I have so much energy and want to do so much but I don't have the time or finance to do all that my jittery mind and body wish to do.

I want not to be alone in my life. My child is getting older and will be leaving my house soon, then I will be alone...so so alone. I don't know what I would do with my life. I have lived thus far to keep her safe, happy, fed, and dressed. Now, as her dependency wanes, I have no ideal what do do in my growing free time?

I know I'm way ahead of myself, but I still am no where, where I want to be in my life. I am not anything I expected I would be. Dream deferred, I don't even remember what I dreamed for myself. I think at this point good health is a great start, but my new dream would be to learn to date again, and however that works these days. :/ Technology has kind of killed the face to face interaction. I would like to eventually own a house and have a halfway decent car. I would also like to control my own work schedule and have money save to travel when ever my heart fancied. To travel the world would make me the happiest and my ultimate dream would be to buy and own my own tropical island and escape from the tragedy and drama of the world.